Before I ovulate I am rational, patient and focused.
A few days after ovulation I become an obsessive analyst of my own physical state, checking off every twinge and feeling, against a list of criteria for being pregnant.
I contacted a human at FF about my chart and they said they suspect ovulation was day 20, not day 18 as the computer has chosen.
I can see an argument for either way, but the reason this matters so much is that it means that tomorrow I am either 5 or 7 days past ovulation. And 7dpo is when I like to start testing!
I am so, so, so wishing to be pregnant… I am just fed up of this waiting, really really fed up with it. I just want to get on with it. I just want to get on with being pregnant and stop all this time from passing where NOTHING IS HAPPENING.
Of course if I am pregnant, I’ll be even more paranoid about a miscarriage because late ovulation is linked to miscarriage.
I can’t win.
I’m going to be a nervous wreck forever at this rate.
Am I ever, ever going to hold a newborn I have birthed in my arms again??
And would life be any easier if I knew the answer to this question?