And I love it 🙂
And I love it 🙂
I’ve popped in for a 10 minute catch up. I’ve read a handful of posts, will scribble this down and then head off again.
Like Mummy Flying Solo I think bullet points are the way forward!
I miss you all, but will be blogging less frequently here, I think. At least for the moment.
I have been away before and returned in force, so never say never 😉
Much love, Rx
So, first up, I really need to do an end of month review for my 12 goals… but that is the subject of another post.
I had already decided I was going gluten and sugar free, before I got my (almost) official coeliac diagnosis yesterday. But after what my doctor said, there is no way I’ll be going back to gluten. The real challenge for me this month, is going to be going sugar free.
My sugar addiction is still alive and kicking. I was sugar-free for several weeks at the beginning of this year, and have somewhat slipped off the wagon since then, but overall my sugar consumption is less than it has been in previous years.
It’s a hard one to kick, and I know the cravings will be bad, but I will get through it.
May is going to be the month where I start the long process of healing my body after a lifetime of eating gluten. It’s going to be a time of nourishing food that will hopefully begin to repair any intestinal damage, and make bloating and pain a distant memory.
I am looking forward to managing those cravings and coming out the other side.
For the first time in my life, I feel that I can finally proceed with a dietary approach that I know is right for me.
It is at once a relief and a challenge. And I am so grateful to have finally found the answer to the feeling of something just not being right.
Peace and love to you all,
Today I went back to the doctors to go over the blood test results from my Coeliac test 20 months ago.
It turns out that on the four markers they checked, I was out of range for three, but the fourth was normal. The one that was normal was the most important: anti-tissue transglutnase.
I was clinically deficient in calcium and potassium, and I had a very high (way out of normal range) level of serum C reactive protein, which indicates inflammation or infection.
It is commonly accepted in the coeliac community that the antibody test can come back negative if you are IgA deficient, and sometimes even if you are not, and you can still get a positive gut biopsy and be diagnosed as a coeliac.
The doctor that reviewed my results 20 months ago was a stand-in doctor who I saw because my usual doctor was away.
My usual doctor said the following.
I came home and my head is all over the place.
Why didn’t I follow up on these results 20 months ago?
Here are some of the symptoms usually associated with coeliac disease (taken from ceoliac.org.uk) that I have experienced:
Out of this list it doesn’t take a genius to guess which one of these jumps out at me the most.
20 months ago, when the stand-in doctor wrote “Normal, no action” on my file, I’d just suffered my third miscarriage.
AT THAT POINT she could have called me back to try to find out why my other results were so out of line.
AT THAT POINT I would have had the energy for a biopsy, for stuffing my face with gluten. I would have done anything for that third baby.
Today, 20 months, and four more unexplained miscarriages later, my fight is all gone.
I refused the gut biopsy today.
I stopped eating gluten 6 days ago and (I write this with tears filling my eyes), my insomnia is better, my eczema has dried up and softened, my stomach is flatter than it’s been in years, and all my pain and bloating and soreness is gone.
Once you start eating gluten-free your intestine starts to repair and a biopsy will be inconclusive. There is no other definitive test.
Six weeks ago I lost a developmentally and chromosomally normal baby boy. A boy! With no explanation. Sad expressions from doctors and nurses, all unable to explain why my body keeps rejecting babies. 46 days on and I am still bleeding.
Would I have gone through this if the doctor had called for the biopsy 20 months ago?
Would I be sitting here now with a baby on my lap?
It’s almost unbearable to think about. A casual dismissal of some of out range results that could have changed the course of my entire life.
Life goes on, if you’re lucky.
And I am lucky.
My doctor’s advice was to stay off gluten for 6 months. Ha. I will never touch it again.
Could I sustain a pregnancy now?
I don’t know if I even care. I remember the nurse on the ward telling me to never give up. That she had her daughter at 43.
But even while she was saying it I think I knew that I didn’t have any more fight left in me for babies. The increasing age gap, the stress of worrying, the stupid trying and stupid waiting and stupid scheduled sex, and my broken heart: held together with scraps of tape after losing so many pregnancies.
I feel beaten.
And for that I am crying today, even though I think I finally have my answer.
After some thought – and the gathering of willpower – I have decided to take part in Valerie’s Health and Fitness Challenge during the month of May. See her post for how to join in!
During May my challenge is to be gluten-free and to avoid all sugar (including fruit sugar).
This month, when I tried to do 30 days of being vegan, although I still ate lots of fruit and veg, the increase in carbs (specifically gluten, I suspect), gave me horrendous bloating, stomach aches and even pain by the end of three weeks. Not only that but my eczema got itchier and redder, and I found sleeping through the night became almost impossible. The last few days were a pretty miserable experience.
I have mentioned my previous suspicions of Coeliac Disease, which was officially ruled out despite a positive home test, so I was already thinking along the lines of going gluten free as a trial when the wonderful Rachael of Mummy Flying Solo mentioned a book called Grain Brain to me (by David Perlmutter MD).
Wow. I read this book cover to cover in a few days. It is essentially a fairly primal approach to eating (for those unfamiliar with primal or paleo it’s based on lots of veg, with meat, fish and eggs for protein, sparing dairy and fruit, and no grains). I’ve used a lot of primal recipes over the last 18 months as I have long suspected an issue with gluten, so it’s something I’m already comfortable with. This book, combined with my recent experience of eating a lot of grains has motivated me to completely cut them out for the month. I tried going gluten free once before and lasted just 11 days. A few days after I started eating wheat again I suffered a chemical pregnancy. Coincidence? Who knows.
This time I’ll be following along with lots of other May challengers and hopefully we can all support each other to get through the month with our new resolutions intact!
In addition to going gluten-free I’m also cutting out all sugar (including fruit sugar). This is specifically to see if being gluten and sugar free helps my skin, and it’s a long overdue experiment (despite heading towards 40 at breakneck speed I still suffer from spots and pimples, not to mention eczema on my body and small patches of rosacea around my nose and lips).
I have a few exceptions to the no-sugar policy: xylitol, stevia, raisins and honey are ok in small amounts.
No particular reason for choosing these other than I have them in the house and they will be my go-to products in the event of cravings.
So, the issues I’ll be hoping to see an improvement on, and will be tracking in my posts are:
I’ll be blogging at the end of each weekend (realistically it will probably be Monday, or even Tuesday morning for me), along with everyone else on the challenge.
Good luck all!