I had my scan today to check up on the ol’ uterus. Things are apparently fine, although “a bit still left to come”.
A home test this morning showed a very faint positive.
The consultant asked me if I’d lost weight again (she said that before Christmas too, having not seen me since May/June I think). I certainly haven’t – if anything I’ve put weight on – especially over Christmas – having eaten and drunk my way through the whole holiday. Maybe she says that to all the ladies to make them feel better.
She was so laid back about it all.
Well, just patience, you know. These things take time. We’ll see you with some good news soon, eh?
Maybe having several miscarriages in a row is a lot more common than I thought. She didn’t seem phased by it.
On another day, during another miscarriage, that attitude might have upset me, but I kind of felt the same today. I’ll be back, hopefully soon, and hopefully with good news.
Talking of news, we booked a fertility clinic appointment. Now, we have done this before, and cancelled, so it may not happen, but I think after a year of having it in my peripheral thoughts, I’ve finally accepted that IVF is something we might just end up doing… well, we’ll see.
I’m super-happy to see 2015 arrive though. I’ve always loved New Year and the idea of a clean slate, a whole year of potential just waiting to be tapped into. This year, aside from TTC (which I think is just a permanent fixture of my life these days), I’m going to be focusing on improving my health and fitness even more. I really got into a decent routine of eating very well and exercising in the last third of 2014, and I want to build on that (I even did a run today! On January 2nd!). I also want to focus more on writing, after having two short stories published in 2014. Finally I’ll be programming more too, just because I love it.
I have no grand plan, or money-making ideas, I’m just going to pursue what makes me happy and what makes me feel really good. And if something comes from that, then that’s even better.