Pulling Out The Big Guns


We have made an appointment at a fertility clinic.

Never in a bazillion years did I think I would ever say this. Hell, I don’t even know what on earth they might be able to do for us.

But time is ticking away – it’s been 27 months now. And I’m turning 40 in December. I’ve been trying for a third baby since I was 37 and although I’ve gotten pregnant five times, and said I’m going to stop trying way more than five times, we’re still here, still stuck, still hoping.

So, the date is August the 8th.

We’ll go in, we’ll talk to the consultant, and we’ll see what they say.

I’m kind of hoping that we can just speed things up – it’s not so much GETTING pregnant, it’s STAYING pregnant. But since my coeliac diagnosis, I have this weird feeling that I won’t miscarry any more.

But it could take 6 more months for a natural pregnancy to happen. I am thinking maybe IUI will give us a head start – the best sperm, a better chance. Then it’s up to my body to see if it will hold.

So there we go.

I’m CD5 at the moment, so we’ll fit another try in before we see anyone (and probably another try after that unless they move with lightning speed).

I feel a mixture of relief and trepidation. Relief at finally asking for help.

Trepidation that nothing and no one can help me.

13 thoughts on “Pulling Out The Big Guns”

  1. Hi Rose! I’m always so glad to have an update from you. 🙂 I think this is a really positive thing that you’re doing. If you never pursue this and see what the possibilities might or might not be, then you will never know. For me anyway, the notion of having regrets in the future has always such been such a strong force in our infertility struggles, and I feel like this step for you is an important one. (not to totally project my own experiences and opinions on you and your individual situation…!) And there have been so many positive things going on with you in the past few months. I’m excited for you to take this step and I really, really hope you’ll be keeping us posted, because I will continue to think of you LOTS! Sending you tons of love!

    • Thank you so much – I think of you often too and love to see your comments 🙂 I will definitely update as and when things happen. I swing from extreme enthusiasm to dark despair quite easily at the moment. I just want to get on with it, lol!! X

  2. We will be on this journey together, lovely Rose. I know I felt such a sense of relief in handing over the worry to someone else. Good luck x (ps not sure how it works there but my specialist was really anti IUI for under 35. That changed because of some results I got as you probably know from my post Fingers crossed hon).

    • For over 35? I think I had heard that – I’ve already steeled myself for them telling us that IUI is a waste of time. I’m interested to see what they say – given I’ve had 5 pregnancies over the last two years perhaps they will be more inclined to think it is worth a go. 8th August seems like a lifetime away at the moment. I’m should have a PhD in waiting… :eyeroll: Yes – your results were good weren’t they? I’m excited to see if this works for you!! X

      • Haha yes there is soooo much waiting. You situation is more the trying to stay pregnant one rather than fall pregnant as you say so you never know what your clinic will have to offer. My clinic is a big proponent of acupuncture to assist with pregnancy so maybe that is something you could look into as well. I have found a new one here who I love. She has sent me home with specific meditations for pregnancy (she downloaded them amd gave them to me on a thumb drive – bless). God knows how I’ll fit in listening to them but anyway. She takes a really holistic approach is my point and I like that and despite what people say research has shown acupuncture to be effective for pregnancy. And I know they do stuff to help a pregnancy “stick”.

  3. Glad you are acting!!! If anything, for your peace of mind! My RE def took an aggressive approach b/c of my age (i’m 40). I’m a little bummed we didn’t go straight to IVF…but everyone has their own journey. Thinking of you! Can’t wait to hear how it goes!! xo

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