I have survived my first week back at work.
Returning to work has been better than I was expecting. I’ve remembered a lot more than I did first time around, I feel more on top of things and people have been generally very nice to me (with the common question of ‘are you going to have any more then?’ to which I have yet to find a suitable answer…).
Nursery has been slightly less great. DS2 just isn’t in any proper routine, so he’s been napping and eating all over the place and just seems very unhappy when I collect him.
I am really worried about him – I just feel like he is not getting the proper attention and care he needs, so we’ve had a few tears in the evenings and I’ve been a bit short-tempered with DS1 and his antics as a result.
DS1 seems to be locked in battle with me at the moment, and I suspect this is because of the reduced hours of time we spend together coupled with the fact that I am fussing over DS2 quite a bit more than usual because I am so terrified that nursery are causing him lasting damage.
So, all in all, it’s been OK but not great.
I’m really glad it’s Friday and am planning a morning to take DS1 out tomorrow, and then lots of playtime with DS2 in the afternoon.
It’s hard to find the time to do anything other than survive the days right now, but hopefully I’ll settle into things as the weeks go on.