I had my cardiology appointment today, after seeing the GP about increasingly annoying “skipped beats” over the last year.
After an ECG and a heart ultrasound, the consultant saw me and told me my heart is perfectly healthy.
He says I am suffering from ventricular ectopic beats. They are very common and totally benign.
There is no heart murmur either.
Ectopic beats are often provoked by nicotine (nope), caffeine (two teas a day at most), fizzy drinks (nope), alcohol (hardly ever).
Oh, and stress.
Well, yes. I do get that. A bit.
Isn’t it funny how I keep expecting something terrible to be wrong with me, but I just keep getting told I am in perfect health??
So I started wondering.
Is everything down to stress?
Am I miscarrying because of stress?
Generic baby websites reassure women that stress doesn’t cause miscarriage.
But there is an interesting summary of studies here that say the opposite.
And a huge increase in miscarriage rate is seen in women exposed to rocket attacks in war zones.
Am I stressed?
Hell, yes I am.
I’ve been stressed for two years while trying for a baby, losing 5 pregnancies and simultaneously looking after two young children with zero support aside from my husband. I’ve lost two grandparents and my brother has been in and out of psychiatric wards. I’ve also found myself dealing with impossible emotions surfacing from my own childhood since becoming a parent myself.
I’m a control freak and a bit of a perfectionist.
So, I’m going to get an adrenal stress profile done and see what the results are.
And I am simply too tired, tonight, to write anything else.