6 Weeks 4 Days – Updated

Each morning, when I take my temperature and it hasn’t dropped, I am astonished.

Today was 98.5, so I won’t pass anything before tonight at the earliest.

The bleeding is even heavier this morning, and I’m now wearing a pad all the time (although not filling them).

But get this – I did another clearblue digital, and it changed from 2-3 weeks to 3+ weeks.

I was sat on the floor in my bedroom, having a quiet cry after dropping the boys off, thinking I’ll get some grieving out of the way while the house is empty. I snatched the test angrily off the bedside table, ready for it to say 1-2 weeks, but it has bloody gone up. Messing with head. That means my HCG levels are 2600+.

For the record (I called their customer careline this morning), the Clearblue HCG levels in the UK test are:

10-156: 1-2 weeks
156-2600: 2-3 weeks
2600: 3+ weeks.

I don’t know what to make of that. I suppose they might be rising slowly, which would account for why it’s taken so long to click over to 3+ weeks. Slow rising HCG is generally an indicator of a non-viable pregnancy.

But with the bleeding I’m getting, I would have thought that my HCG would be levelling off, or more likely, decreasing.

Pfff. I don’t know.

I’ll update this post after my scan this afternoon instead of writing a new one.

UPDATE:

Scan showed an empty gestational sac, which I pretty much suspected. It’s an anembryonic pregnancy, or blighted ovum – the baby just never grows.

Well.

I actually don’t feel too devastated by this as at least I didn’t have to see yet another teeny corpse on screen.

Going back in two weeks to check, but this should pass on its own. Soon, hopefully.

Large glass of wine for me tonight.

Thanks for all your thoughts and hope – sorry the news was bad. Again.

I WILL get there though.

In the meantime, I’m going to have a boozy Christmas, and hopefully the New Year will bring better news on the baby front (3rd year lucky, right?).

17 thoughts on “6 Weeks 4 Days – Updated

  1. I am so sorry that the scan did not show better results. I know you were prepared for this, but it still sucks!! No matter how many times you’ve been through it, it is never easy. I hope you pass everything quickly and you aren’t stuck waiting for weeks for this to be behind you. Wishing you love and peace through all of this.

    • Thank you. I think I was fully prepared for this and not seeing a baby was almost a relief. I can handle a random chromosome failure better than the heart stopping for no reason. Sigh. Temp is almost down to normal today, so hopefully it will pass soon. Then I can enjoy Christmas and we can try again in the New Year. It took 3 months before I had a normal cycle after the last loss and I don’t want a repeat of that! X

      • I really hope you don’t have to wait 3 months! The unknown delay in the timing of the miscarriage and return to normal is absolutely frustrating. It may be the most frustrating part because for me I’m mentally ready to move on by physically my body is not at the same place.
        Anyways, I’ll be thinking of you and hoping you don’t face significant delays.

        • Thanks. It’s the same for me. I’m done – ready to stop thinking about it all, ready to focus on next month. But it seems to take so long for the body to reach the same conclusion. If I could will this pregnancy out, it’d be long gone.

  2. Oh hugs! I kept refreshing the page hoping to see good news. Hugs and prayers… this has been such a rial of ups and downs! Thinking of you and sending prayers. Try to enjoy you holidays and your wine! 🙂

    Love La-

    • Thank you La 🙂 Always lovely to hear from you. I will, thank you. Have a wonderful Christmas too and here’s to a happy and healthy 2015 for us both xxxx

  3. Oh Rose. I am so so so so sorry to hear this. I was sure with all your lifestyle changes that this would be the one. 🙁 Here’s to a fertile baby bearing year for us both xxxxxxxxxxxx And yes BOOZE IT UP.

    • I was too. But I feel and look better than I have in a long time, so I’m sure I’m nearly there. Also, every time I get pregnant, I swing the odds a little more in my favour of a take home baby, right? This year is gonna be it for us – 2015, here we come 🙂 ♥️

      • You look fabulous! I was looking at your 40th pics and despite everything that I know was going on for you internally you actually looked freaking awesome. Radiant and happy. And yes, surely sooner or later one pregnancy just takes. ONE WOULD THINK. Geez. Here’s to our dreams coming true in 2015 x

        • Thanks so much for this comment. I read it just before I went to bed last night after a thoroughly CRAP day where I just felt so horrible and miserable, and it was the nicest thing to read. THANK YOU. I was absolutely determined that it wouldn’t mar the day and I did manage to keep it at bay, so the nice thing is, nice memories, despite all the crap afterwards. NEXT YEAR IS GOING TO BE BETTER. It just is. It’s not even an option. xxxxxx

  4. So sorry the scan didn’t go well. I truly hope that things go quickly for you and don’t drag out as well. Fingers crossed that next year will be better for everyone…in the mean time, enjoy your holidays!!

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