Day 43 – Appetite Changes

I had muesli for breakfast this morning, exactly as always.

I buy one with lots of nuts and seeds and it usually gets me through til about 12pm before I get hungry.

But today I came out of a 9am meeting at work and I was shaking. That wobbly, horrible feeling you get when your blood sugar has plummeted and you need some food RIGHT NOW.

So I went to the canteen and bought… a sausage sandwich. Yup, my second breakfast was a sausage sandwich at 9.30am.

I also wanted two bananas to go with it (really – that’s exactly what I was imagining eating), but they had sold out of bananas 🙁

My usual midday lunchtime came and went, and not unsurprisingly I didn’t want my packed lunch salad.

At 1.30pm I forced down some lettuce and tomato and a bit of carrot. The rest went in the bin.

And here’s the weird thing. I am currently suffering from what can only be described as food aversions. It’s not nausea (hurrah!), it’s just an overwhelming feeling of not wanting to put certain things in my mouth.

The thought of eating the flatbreads in my packed lunch made me feel distinctly ill.

This is a very gentle kind of “morning sickness”, unlike previous pregnancies where from about 5.5 weeks I felt sick whenever I wasn’t eating and hated the taste of everything while I was eating.

The only thing that worries me is that the lack of nausea means a miscarriage is a possibility. I even craved a cup of coffee this afternoon (with cream and sugar), which I haven’t been able to stand in previous pregnancies. I drank the coffee and have been paranoid all afternoon that I’ve hurt the baby.

Or what if the baby isn’t developing? What if there won’t be anything there at the scan?

Once you’ve suffered a pregnancy loss, you never, ever really relax about pregnancy ever again.

I’m trying hard to be positive, but in a way, full-on morning sickness would be more reassuring.

Day 42 – No Morning Sickness So Far

I’m not really suffering from any morning sickness yet. It started at about this time with both previous pregnancies and I have felt a little more delicate than usual just the last two days, but the nausea hasn’t really kicked in properly.

Life at the moment is a big round of work, prepare for work, look after boys, play with boys, catch up with housework, prepare for work again, etc. so I haven’t had much time to do anything, including writing on here.

The evenings are so incredibly short, and there is so much other stuff to be done, that it’s all I can do to cover the minimum to keep things ticking over from day to day.

I can imagine that this will be even more prevalent when there are three kiddies running around (still can’t quite get used to the fact that we’re not thinking about having three now, we are having three).

Feeling a bit of despair over all the things I want to do around the house and whether or not I will actually have enough time to prepare for this baby in the way that I want to.

My friends have taken to talking about me having another baby as if it is a decision already made, which is funny, as I haven’t actually said that to any of them, but maybe they are picking up on something because they all seem to be assuming it’s going to happen and I haven’t tried to deny it. I’m 6 weeks pregnant now, so am really hoping to keep things under wraps until the 12 week scan, but part of that depends on how much my stomach pops out before then. With DS2 it was almost impossible to hide.

I am still slowly losing weight, as I’m not eating any sugary food, but I swear my belly is sticking out more now than a month ago. I think I look smaller with a bigger stomach, hah!

Ah well, we’ll see. Most people wouldn’t dare ask so I’ll just have to rely on that to keep things quiet.