Tiny Tea

Sometimes it’s the smallest thing that gets right under your skin and makes you want to yell and scream and throw things at people. And it’s the REPEATED nature of small annoyances that do it, because every time it happens, it annoys you a little bit more, until one day you find that you are practically bursting with rage over this little tiny thing and you can’t even understand how something so insignificant can annoy you so much.

Case in point: we have a new employee in the canteen that serves us tea and coffee. Every time I buy tea from her, she doesn’t fill the little polystyrene cup up properly. She leaves about an inch of room from the tea level to the top of the cup. Grrr.

Why does this annoy me so much?

1) I like my tea hot with hardly any milk (I’m talking about half a teaspoon’s worth of milk maximum), so by the time I’ve taken the teabag out and added my dribble of milk, my cup looks like I’ve already taken two gulps out of it.

2) I buy large tea for 50p. There is a small tea option for 37p. If I buy a large tea from said employee, I’m paying for a large tea and effectively getting a small one.

3) Over the last week I have politely asked her on at least 6 occassions to top up my cup with water before handing over the money, once even explaining that I don’t have a lot of milk, so I don’t need the extra room in the cup.

4) Despite this she still insists on giving me a cup of tea that isn’t quite full, even though she surely must recognise me as the annoying woman who always asks for the extra water.

I bought a cup of tea this afternoon, and she did exactly the same thing as always, and I didn’t bother to ask for extra water, because to be honest it’s like trying to teach an idiot how to do calculus, and I just can’t be a*sed to waste my breath. But it wound me up so much, that I have decided never to buy tea from her again. Ever.

New Design Almost Complete

Steve and I watched a couple of episodes of Scrubs last night (is this the best hospital show ever, or what?), and then I spent half an hour fretting about the fish not being happy (Bert looks fed up), and worrying that they wouldn’t last another two weeks until we can move them into their new home. I checked them again this morning, and Ernie seems back to his normal self after the move from Mum’s, but Bert still looks a bit miffed. Poor Bert. He’s really too big to be in that little tank now.

After that I did a couple of hours work on the new site design. It’s pretty much finalised, I’ve just got to add the finishing touches, do a bit of tidying up, validate everything and make sure the layout looks OK in a couple more browsers. I’m hoping to get the new design online by the end of next week at the latest. Exciting eh? Hope y’all like it. No sneak previews though, you’re just going to have to wait.

Achieving Your Goals

I’ve been thinking a lot today (it’s Monday, so therefore inevitable that I have to take stock of my life and decide if it’s going ok or not), and I have decided that part of the reason I am not spectacularly good at any one thing is because I like to do everything. I’m interested in too much. There just isn’t enough time in the week to learn piano, learn German, take amazing photos, exercise lots, learn to ice-skate, make funny and entertaining home movies, cook 7 wondrously healthy meals, spend hours pampering myself in the bathroom, make my own clothes, make my own soap, write a novel, learn the inner secrets of Linux, read a couple of books, improve my C++ knowledge, write some software, trace my family tree, complete a few more levels on the latest computer game, update my website and do enough yoga to look like Madonna. I just can’t… s q u e e z e …. it …….all ……..IN!

So I end up feeling frazzled and failing to really achieve anything great.

I’ve had this idea in my head for a while now (about a couple of years), that to really do well at something, you have to do it to the exclusion of (at least some) other things. I remember reading a while ago: ”the way to get lots of things done, is to do them one thing at a time”. This makes sense to me deep down. But in reality, I get so easily excited and enthused by other projects, that I just can’t keep at one thing for any length of time. So am I doomed to be Jack of all Trades and Master of None forever? Hmm. I am beginning to question if perhaps I wouldn’t get more satisfaction out of my free time and hobbies if I just narrowed them down to the things I really, really loved. Or really, really wanted to be great at.

Except how can I narrow it down, when I really, really want to do them all? The other approach is to think more long term and decide on what I am going to concentrate on now. And then do just that and leave all the other hobbies in the cupboard. In 5 years time, when I am fluent in German, my newly acquired skill will need less time to keep sharp, so then I can get involved in something new on the list, with the added expertise of already having learnt something truly well (german yoga classes anyone?). But then I get that stress-inducing feeling inside me that I am not achieving enough because I am only concentrating on one thing, and what if I die before I get to the next one, or I change my mind about it, or I forget my enthusiasm for it, and so on and so on.

So the upshot of today’s soul searching (while I bumble through my latest project in the office, wait for my car to be serviced, and wonder exactly how long it will take me to set up my own business and work from home without facing poverty), is that I think I might have to rethink my goals, and streamline them to something more achievable, so that I can actually start seeing some fruition from my efforts instead of wondering why I never seem to get anything done.

Fish Homecoming

Steve and I collected Bert and Ernie (our fish) from Mum on Sunday. It’s taken us almost 2 months to get organised enough to do this. We have also bought them a lovely new 4 bedroom detached aquarium with garage… just got to wait for the water to settle down and grow enough bacteria to support them (takes 2-3 weeks). Bert has turned into a big fat fish while we have been in America. Ernie is still little, so we might separate them for a while and feed Ernie up a bit. Poor Ernie has a slightly mishapen mouth, so I think he finds it harder to eat than greedy-chops Bert the bloater. As soon as I find my tripod (where is that?), I will take some pics to illustrate (the size difference, not Ernie’s mouth).

Need for Speed

I’ve been quiet this week, not doing much, mostly working away, and in the evenings just setting up MY NEW COMPUTER!!!!!! Yes folks, I finally crumbled and after feeling totally fed up with 3 computers which aren’t quite what I want (and are v old and/or borrowed), files all over the place, and nowhere safe to put them, I went down to Novatech and bought the bits for a machine with all the bells and whistles. Pentium 4, 2MB cache processor, 1GB Ram, brand new ASUS motherboard, 160GB SATA drive, firewire card (for video editing, yay!), DVD writer and Radeon Sapphire super-duper graphics card.

Ahhhh such luxury. I put it all together and it’s so fast. It’s so lovely.

Have also been looking at Celestia a lot. A work colleague has it on their computer, and it is great. I downloaded it last night and went on a tour round the milky way. Before you even think it, I am not one of those astrology fanatics, so don’t imagine it’s only for geeks. It’s cool – it’s like Google Earth, but for the universe. And on my new computer they are both amazing!!!

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